Hey partner or should call my soon to be soulmate, I dont know where are you right now.
You make me keep waiting for such a long time.
I cant wait to meet you.
Im really hopelessly.
I need u to calm me down.
To get away my insecurity.
I want to be loved
Only from u
Hi
I just hope I will get my posting call as soon as possible. Im too bored at home and I dont know what to do.
Buat salah tidak buat salah
Apalah fungsinya tu
Bagus aku pergi jauh ja
Im so sick with all of this
Im a little bit worried now. Its about my posting call anyway. Im afraid that I cant get it and have to wait for a long time.
Maybe I dont deserve it
I am trying to live my life here. There's a pro and contra, and it shouldnt make me worried anyway cause it is how our life supposed to be. There wont be any obstacle that were too easy.
Well anyway, Hii blogger... I havent post anything to you for a quite 2 months maybe. I know I should update a little bit of my life here so someday I'll be reminded for what I've been doing these day. To know how silly my post sometimes.
So yeah, what interesting event that happen to my life these day? Im going to tell you, its about my last visit to Sapi Island. Basically I was just doing jungle trekking and a little bit hiking there. We were looking for the Secret Cliff which absolutely giving you the best view and awesome experience. And I know im not fit cause hell yeah im breathing like a whatt...
I know I should do some workout and get that sweat out from my body. But the thing is, I was just too lazy.
Took some picture for sure but when you are too tired, you dont even think straight. So it turn out to be not as what you plan lah. Interm of my picture lah.
Im not sure when I will get my posting call. My uniform, sadly to be told, it was disaster. That collar, hhmmmmm what I should say. Its terible. Need to do the new one I guess.
Ok enough with the babling, I ll stop here. Gotta say bye for now.
Huk aloh, I miss Penang more than Negeri Sembilan eventhough I've been living in nogori longer than penang.
Seriously, I like Penang.
Rindu
Sebab Penang banyak tempat menarik
Banyak yang aku belum discover lagi.
It has been a long time since i didnt hangout with my other friends.
They might be didnt left me out like what ive been through right now.
I wouldnt live in my own if im with them. Atleast thats what i thought lah.
Its my fault too actually. Im the one who didnt care. Too preoccupied with someone else.
I hate this and im regretting it right now. Urgggghhh
Stresss
So its second day of my exam
Second last obstacle before becoming an employee.
Im sure im pass but not with flying colours la. Just a normal result cuz i dont give 100% focus.
Tomorrow its going to be my last OSPE or known as practical exam which determine wether i could do it in time or not. This is where my skill will be tested. I should finish it within the given time and of course i must do it correctly.
So, i hope everyone will pass their exam first sitting. Eventhough i know there's someone who are doing little cheat there.
Right now, i just want to finish my exam and going back to home immediately. I miss my home. I miss my mother
I thought it's a sign but then it just a way to make me remember god
I know i shouldn't believe it, I thought he's not like others
But to be truth, he's just same
Nvr mind, i will wait for my future
I dont have a guts to express my feeling open to everyone. Im not kind of like that.
So when i say it, its kinda akward.
I show my love in an unknown way.
Sejujurnya, aku hanya inginkan yang terbaik buat ibu aku. Cuz she's the only one that i have.aside from my sibling la.
I saw her happy, sad and angry. And I dont want her to be sad. Experienced it once when she's so sad, it just like it tearing your heart into a small pieces.
Same like your heart stabbed by a daggers.
Woopppsssss, i miss my old school.
Yea, suddenly.
Pokok besar depan dewan asrama
Surau lama
Pondok telefon
Kwsn hutan sblh pondok telefon
Kelas 2/3 amanah paling atas paling hujung blh nmpk sungai Padas
Lepak tepi jalan raya di lereng bukit
Bilik seni visual
Bilik nda igt nama apa tp sblh dgn kelas pnddkn khas yg lma
Bangunan projek kilat
Bilik RCT
Tangga dewan asrama
Hari hari pergi sekolah naik bukit selama 7 tahun dan aku rindu.
Ada bbrpa yang aku nyatakan dah takde da
Byk prubahan
Trutama skali pokok tu dn hutan
Banyak benda yang aku fikir. Kau tau, aku sebenarnya sedang tercari-cari kau berada di mana. Aku syak aku rasa cemburu dengan kehidupan mereka. Yea i know life is not perfect neither us, human.
Aku berdoa tapi aku tau susa untuk dimakbulkan sebab aku sedar diri aku macammana.
Tapi aku masih mahu berdoa
Masih mengharapkan keberadaannya.
I dont know what will happen to me 5 years later
Interm of my lovelife
Yup, its tear out my heart deeply
No body will stand with me
Nobody will understand me just like what i want them to
Its so depressing
Hey, if you are really out there. Please find me. Im begging you.
Please come into my life. Please stop my insecurity.
I want atleast someone to be my side someday.
I'd rather live alone than have to share with someone else
I don't know how treat them
I don't know what to talk
I'd rather be quiet
It so akward
They must be think that im a sombong person
In sick of fake people
They're too much
I hate it
I hate to express my kinda mad feeling to people
So what i can do is just post in my blog
So teribly devasted
Im exhausted with this kind of people
Seriously......
Kau tau apa yang aku lalui disini.
Semuanya ternyata bosan
I dont know what will happen?
And yet, i dont prepare anything for that.
I will just go with the flow
I dont care and i dont want
Being a stranger, a quiet person
No self esteem.mmmmm
A situation where i dont belong
But still
Im stucked in it.
Theres a way out but im too lazy.
So, its 25 march and i'm in Penang right now. Yea, my practical has just ended a few days ago and now continue with my last three months training in Penang.
A lil bit sad leaving my practical place cause ive been there about one year and half. There are too many memories good and bad that we created. But still i dont want to come back there anymore. Not as a staff la.
So, i hope i can finish my training with successful. Thats the only that i hope as for now.
2 months has passed and i still have two weeks more to finish my practical.
Frankly, i often felt a lil bit depressed and stress.
Kagum juga la dengan orang yang ikhlas nak jadi dsa ni sebab bagi aku kerja ni tidak memuaskan. Bagi aku la.
I tried to love this job but sometimes i just lost the spirit. Well, you have to handle with people's saliva, blood, calculus and others. Yes it is gross.
Dental is fun but only if you are the dentist. Me meanwhile,my jobs are ermmmm well. What can i say. Im not going to stuck with this job forever, as soon as i can i want to upgrade my job.
Felt butthurt and so on today.
Erghhhhhh, i really hate it. Not just for today, but almost everyday. Its not the same anymore.
Its not even my fault but i have to face it. Hello, dont you realise i was only with you just for a few days. How should i know anything.
The thing is im really not satisfied. Please. Think.
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Cuz i dont know who i shoul tell my feeling so i just post it here. Atleast theres no one notice it.
I just felt like i want to quit this practical and go away. Its so boring.
Hi..
I was a little bit felt annoyed with certain things or maybe some people.
But here, I just wanna make myself clear that it was just a phase of my life. Something that me and other people going through in life no matter it was easy or hard.
As a matter of fact, Im going to accept everything of it and think positively.
And people (althought those who are related didn't read this) , please excuse my habit nowadays. I tend to speak freely and didn't think about the outcomes after that. So sorry if I've hurt any feelings by mean or not.
Please ignore it.
That's why I'd rather be a quiet person.
There's a lot of my wish for this year. Year of 2016. But the most important wish is i want to less talk unnecessary things and talk sincerely from my heart. I don't want any hatred feeling goes out through my mouth. Believe me, talk nonsense was the foolish things to do. If you have nothing to say then don't say it cause it will make you regret for something that you don't want.
I've observe and think thoroughly over some matter for the past year seriously. I write based on my experiences. Long ago, when I was in my high school, I'm a shy and quiet person. I don't talk too much and don't communicate very well with my friends and teachers except my close friends. So, as a conclusion they don't think i'm bad person. I mean I've never bad-mouthed over some people and gossiping unnecessary.
As for today, i've changed. Year 2015 have been thaught me well. I shouldn't changed to a different person. I should stay the same and improve myself towards better person.
So yeah, i hope i can be someone who think before talk and do the best for the rest.
So here
Done my first work for new year today with headache and tired. The weather was so hot and air cond in surgery doesn't function properly.
Hampir nak semput and sesak nafas sebab pakai face mask. Dahla lari sana situ, memang hari yang sangat memenatkan.
