tic toc

time is ticking, you know.To the end of the year.I'm a little worried here.Just wishing what i'm thinking is not over yet.No, it's not about the world that creepy Mayan predicted.Instead, i'm not believing it at all.Okay, drop the subject.

It's about someone who i've admire for such a long time.I really hope that for what I've wish didn't happen, atleast if it is my fate.You know, today is 28 dicember and it's about 3 days going to year 2013.I've not seen him ever these few days, not even once.Yea, it's kinda annoyed me.How can i supposed to meet him if i'm just sitting quietly in the house.Not even going out.

arghhhhh, it's crazy....when will i meet you again?it drives me crazy, I want to see you so badly.chance, where are you?show me the way...........................

moving

hallo...

so, what's wrong the title.Moving?who?me?totally not.
just recently,i heard he is moving to somewhere i don't know.u know what, maybe i will not see him again forever.and ever.thinking about that, i'm very sad.I don't know if i have the chance to see him again.Maybe if we have luck, yea just maybe.

I don't know he's want to move or being transferred.But, whatever it is I'll always missing you.I've the greatest year in 2012 because of you.You've given me a moment to remember eventhough you are not realising it.The moment you sat beside me, talking to me.I was really excited.I even think you take a nap that time.At the van.

After this, I don't know where I want to find you anymore.I know where you live but I don't know your house.Maybe if we have, it just the facebook.But sincerely, i'm not strong enough to confess to you.hehe, silly me.

God, give me a chance to meet him for the last time this year..

after a while

hello there.now, like what i've been told, i'm officially living in a hostel.its been about one month maybe.so, it's kinda okay to me.i'm still adapting this kind of life style, being friendly to everyone especially to the younger ones although i get annoyed with them sometimes.

but unfortunately, i'm facing with someone who are double face.And sometimes she's really annoying me.I'll just have to stand it.

okay, lets go to another topics.i don't want to talk about it anymore...
well, there is something that i really don't satisfied.It's someone who we call an educator or maybe a teacher.she's really somenone who don't know how to differentiate her jobs and her personal.Her personal more likely to be her emotion.She just spit it out to us althought our mistakes doesn't too big.

She's really sensitive right now.After that situation, she's totally changed and we really get annoyed with her.Please, your job just to teach us.Don't ever forget that.It's hard to forgive you.In forest you can see the smoke but in my heart who knows.

YOU, just wait and see.I will never get to answer your question but I will be able to answer in my EXAM.you're just someone.You don't deserve to accept any appreciation from us because you never look into yourself first.you just put blame to us....i really hate that.




well, to end all of this, we just have to smile...

so many things

it's been a long time since i've posted my entry.Totally, i don't really know what i want to talk about.but, i'll just spit it out.

so yeah, so many things happen.either good or bad.it always happen, right?

this time, i wanna  share bout my life as a student.this year, it will be my biggest fear coz this is the last chance for me to prove myself.there just a few months left before i'm facing the scariest ever exam in the world.it's kinda scary to hear that, but that's the facts.

i've to face my assignment on SV which i have to do the folio and model too.attending chemistry's classes which held by my dearest friends..you know what, i'm not really good in chemistry but i kinda like it when it's comes to calculation.like what people said, 'oppurtunity knocks only once'.there, i've to grab the chance whenever i've the chance.

i'll be  in hostel just after Raya coz i really want to concentrate on my study.i know that i'll be lost if i still stay at house.there are too many challenging appearance that will distract me.like you know, korean drama, facebooking, reading online novels and so on.

not forgotten, relationship.sometimes we have to make a distance, so there will be a less in fighting.you don't have to make sour face facing each other.

This year could be the best year for me and my friends.I mean we do exactly what a friends will do.Sharing something together like food, studying, enjoyness, happiness and everything.Before this, i've never experienced such a situation.there will have a shield between us before this.We started to understand each other.

bye................

miserable

confuse, miserable and so on.I have this kind mixed feeling and yet i don't know what to do.Being the last child is not that easy.People think that the younger child is someone who being pampered by their parents.In case of me, it's different.I have many siblings that are different ages with me.20 years, 10 years..

So, whenever i want something.They can give it to me.But actually it's not all like that.Just sometime they will give and I never asking them for something I don't really need.I will think twice before i'm asking for their help so that i will not burden them.

I'm grown up now.I'm no longer a little girl who just know to crying over something unnecessarily.

Seeing other people's life, sometime it makes me jelous.They have a perfect life with perfect family.Maybe.I dont have my closet full of clothes neither bags or shoes.I just have a few clothes to wear everyday, i've borrow another's clothes if i want to go out and etc.I have my passion on camera but somehow its  just lost.i've to pretend that i don't care about what they are doing while my heart is broken.

Besides, I should not share my dreams to other person.Maybe.If I do, my dreams lost just like that.Like if you are going to share it with them for ever.

So this time, i've set in my mind I dont want to share with them.Go to hell, i don't care!!If you want something then make it on your own.Why you have to take it from me?Why don't you find another way to survive?I'm not your angel.

stop blaming other people!!

Hello guys!!

Lately, there are something unpredictably things happen.Actually, I do predict that things to happen but i thought it won't be this serious until they blaming other people.Cut it out, man!!!Seriously, I don't want to know even care about this things.But then, it just getting worst and worst.Damn...

Why they don't think carefully?Is it fun to blame other people without knowing your own weakness?come on, guys!Don't let your mind being stuck with nonsense ideas.Try to figure it out not to blame others and just do what the best.

I mean, you know sort of thinking positively and blablabla.............

And for the people whom they call you as a leader, please do your own duty.When people have trusted you to be a leader, don't ever be hesitated.It's your duty now to manage an organisation without no doubt.I f you feel that you're not really qualified for the position, please back-off early.We don't need you!

O h yeah, as what i've concerned, it's your choice to choosed him as a leader, right?then, serve your right.Me and my classmate never want to choose him because we know what is his ability.But it's yours whom make decision.yeah, Majority.we're the minor one.poor us, oh no no no.poor you.

this weird feeling

yeah, whenever you are, you still can feel somethin' weird happen around you.you never know what thats mean but honestly you just have to figure it out.arghh, lets change the topic.

what i want to say that swirl in my mind is, i should not behave like that.what is 'like that'?really, i'm just being soooooooooooo not me nowadays.thinking to much.NO!i just like lost in the world.

long time no see

whassup guys!!!

long time no see yea.semenjak dua menjak ni aku rasa macam malas nak blogging sudah.Banyak faktor yang membuatkan aku rasa macam tu.antara sebab musabab yang paling utama ialah orang lain.Kau tau tak, nak pegang laptop sendiri pun rasa macam tak sanggup je.rasa bersalah je padahal barang tu milik sendiri.and i have to pendam perasaan ni buat jeruk pekasam.honestly, dia buat aku rasa macam barang tu milik dia.so persoalannya, macam mana nak buat dia sedar tentang hal ni?

ofkos i can do anything what i want but still i tak sampai hati.tak macam dia!hati dia sampai je tu.malah terlebih-lebih lagi.apa yang aku boleh buat, luah kat sini ajelah.

short entry..kbai!

bila dia di depan mata

hallo guys yg berminat pasal dunia percintaan!

Today, aku ada tajuk yang kira heaven buat korang(ceh, bajet ada pembaca ni).Bila Dia Di Depan Mata ataupun dalam bahasa mudahnya bila dia berada disamping korang.Dia?Who the heck is Dia?Dia yang aku maksudkan ialah lelaki/perempuan pujaan korang.Seseorang yang mampu membuatkan darah kau terpam dengan lajunya lalu mewujudkan perasaan nervous ataupun yang seangkatan dengannya bila korang berhadapan dengannya.

Ini blog mengarut, so jangan rasa terbeban dengan isu yang bakal aku ketengahkan ini.Setiap individu mempunyai pandangan tersendiri, begitu juga aku.Aku tak paksa korang kalau korang tak nak baca.(Aduss, perasan ada pembaca lagi).yeah, shame on me.So, my question is what should we do in case of thatt?

Tarik Perhatian
Let say, tiba-tiba je dia ada kat depan korang and then korang terus je menggelabah tak tentu arah.Actually, You can practice this.Buatlah huru hara dengan pura-pura kena histeria ataupun somethinglah asalkan dia perasan kehadiran korang kat situ.Untung-untung dia boleh tolong korang plak time tu dan akhirnya wujudlah bibit-bibit cinta antara korang.Selesai!

Chooooii!apa gile ke nak buat macam tu.Dia makin lari adalah.So, the solution is trying to be a gentleman or gentlewoman(hape kejadahnya gentlewoman pulak).Bagi seorang perempuan, kelembutan dan sopan santun itu penting dalam memikat hati si jejaka.Maka dari itu, cubalah bersikap gentle tapi jangan GEDIK!Simple is easy bilang orang putih.Amalkan kesederhanaan dalam mencari sesebuah perhubungan.Same goes to the gentleman, try to act cool.Girls suka gile dengan lelaki yang cool.Dorang rasa cool itu smart.

Kenali Dia
Opkoslah lepas korang dah berjaya tarik perhatian dia, korang kena cuba kenali si dia.Dan aku ucapkan tahniah sebab korang berjaya tarik perhatian si dia.Its not easy to do that actually unless u're really try hard to give ur commitment on that.Well Done, Guys!Okay, cubalah untuk kenali dia.cuba ketahui apa yang dia suka dan apa yang dia tak suka.Then, cuba aplikasikan pengetahuan korang tu dalam proses menjadikan hubungan korang lebih baik.But, harus diingatkan bahawa jangan sesekali menjadi seperti dia.kenapa?kerana itu memang tidak sepatutnya.

Katakanlah yang dia ni suka warna biru, suka minum milo *ping ,ataupun apa-apalah yang berkaitan.Jangan sesekali mengikut apa yang dia suka menjadi kegemaran korang.Bila wujud persamaan antara korang, hubungan tu dah menjadi hambar.So try to be something different but at the same time both of you can share it together without no doubt.Kadang-kadang sesuatu perbezaan itu lebih membuatkan hubungan korang bertambah rapat sebab korang cuba untuk memahami minat antara satu sama lain.

Beri masa untuk bersendiri
Dan cubalah sesekali beri dia ruang untuk bersendiri.Dia punya keluarga untuk dijaga, dia punya kerja untuk disiapkan dan dia punya masa untuk berehat.Jangan asakkan diri korang dan juga diri dia sendiri dengan hal peribadi yang selalunya memang nonsense langsung.

"Baby, boleh tolong hantarkan I ke mall tak?I nak shopping ler.You temankan I ye."si gadis


"Sayang, Motor I takde minyakle.Boleh tak you tolong isikan?"si lelaki


"Honey, semalam kucing I mati.I sedih sangat tau."si gadis


Kenapa perlu sesakkan diri dengan hal yang amat remeh temeh.You need to act cool.Sometimes, korang perlu jarakkan diri korang.Jangan berhari-hari dok bersms, calling, facebooking and etc.Membosankan!
Cuba jadikan percintaan korang tu macam Long Distance Relationship, surely perhubungan tu akan kekal lama.

Cukuplah hanya 3, okay!tak larat dah nak taip panjang-panjang.But, if you have any question, you can ask me.InsyaAllah, kalau boleh jawab, aku akan cuba sebaiknya.

Maka dari itu, lepaskanlah segala kerisauan anda.Be yourself

note:*ping tu maksudnya ais kat Sabah.So, milo ping means milo ais.

maaf.

having a good time you alls!!
I mean having a good time in evening,yes my dear, please enjoy it as long as you can.

okay people, ayat mukadimah  yang tak sungguh cantik bukan.Title entri aku benar-benar tak bertetapan dengan ayat pembuka entri aku bukan?tak kesah.tak kesah.tak kesah.

sort of like this.

Di petang yang hening ini, amatlah sesuai untuk korang buat Tea Time.Ataupun dalam bahasa mudahnya minum petang!!Yeah, great!Tapi kat kampung-kampung macam kat kampung aku ni, Tea Time ni bukannya penting sangat pun, sekali sekala bolehlah.Itupun kebetulan kalau rajin nak buat kuih bagai kan.

Off to the new chapter, guys!Maaf aku biarkan perenggan kat atas tu tergantung.Biasalah, aku memang macam tu pun dalam bab-bab mengarang ayat ni.Chapter terbaru ialah pengenalan diri aku.aku nak kenalkan kan diri aku..Asal empunya diri dari kampung, tinggal kat kampung dan masih menetap kat kampung.Esok lusa tulat tak tau lah lagi.Sejarah hidup bermula kira-kira 18 tahun dahulu tatkala teknologi masih terhad dan alam sekeliling tak tercemar.

One thing for all of you, Beaufort is my hometown which you can see it as a 'cowboy town'.I'm proud with my own hometown.History stated it as a 'Small Venice In The East' because it always having a flood there every year.(maybe).

Maaf kerana entri tak habis taip.Masih terdapat kata-kata yang ingin diluah tapi masa tak mengizinkan.

p/s: have a good time everybody.